In order to deal with trauma and abuse my primary defense mechanism was to go internal. I would disassociate from reality, and live in my mind.
We all do this to some extent when faced with challenging times.
However for me this response became overstated and as such I now dissociate with out intending to. My brain seems to reflexively go there as it seems safe.
Whilst I am grateful to have the safety of my mind, it now comes at the cost of focus and attention – Sometimes I struggle to check it to what’s happening around me (often to the dismay/offense of those around me)
I am not sure how to over come this other than with repeated focus and attention.
THE BEARD OF KNOWLEDGE